Good morning Witches!
This weekend I’m in a happy place, a secure place and I’m feeling good. So what’s brought on this feeling of peace and serenity? Well this week for the first time in then last 4 years if not longer I feel like I’m in control. It’s like I’ve turned a corner and realised that my mental health and physical limitations are no longer in control, like I’m being guided by them rather than being ruled by them. And that is a major step forward. And I’m owning that and taking it all the way to the bank.
I think by now we all know that you don’t cure mental health, not unless you’ve got millions in the bank and all the time in the world to spend your days in the therapist’s office. But what I have come to terms with this week is that I have now have the right tools in place, meditation, mindfulness, deep breathing exercises, a little bit of aromatherapy, journaling and listening to what my body and mind are telling me, that I can take note of it and manage my day so that it doesn’t effect me as much as it did. As I write this blog this morning my heart rate is higher than it should be, I’ve actually had a stressful week, I’m also coming down from an anxiety attack as well so I’ve still got a bit of extra adrenaline floating around my system, but I was able to spot the sign’s early on and actual do stuff about it rather than just allow it to crash my week. And that is a major step forward.
I’m well aware that this might be a temporary effect and by next weekend I might have crashed, but right now in this moment I’m feeling good and in control. It’s taken my the best part of 5 years to get to this point from realising that after my heart attack that something was very wrong with my emotions, to identifying it and learning to manage it. All I might add with very little professional help. Mental health services in the UK are still seen as a “extra” and you should pay for them yourself. Unless your about to top yourself most local health services don’t want to know. But I have a sense of achievement going on and I’m going to do my best to keep this going for as long as I can. I also know that life can and will still throw my curve balls which will take all that I have learned and test it and me big time, but I feel that I can do this now, which is more then I could have said 3 years ago when I was at my lowest. I now feel like I’m on a journey of discovery and yes freedom rather than just sat spinning my wheels and getting no where. All any one can ask is that you go to bed feeling as good and positive as you did when you woke up. And that my friends I am starting to achieve!
So on to more witchy related stuff. This week we’re coming in to a full moon, Wednesday is the middle day of the Blood moon. As you all know I love me a full moon and do most of my workings at a full moon. As well as the usual crystal cleans and smudging my cards. I have moon water to make and candles to bless ready for Samhain. All of my eBay orders have now arrived and I think I have all that I need for my outdoor display this year, well they had but I’ve just added a couple of more things to the shopping cart! Anyway to add to the happy feeling this week I’m also going to google some well-being spells to try. Now I’ve never been one for spell casting for happiness, but I’d love to keep this feeling of serenity I’ve managed to cultivate, never know I might find something that looks and feelings right to try. I’m currently doing a on-line course about spell casting, again not because I didn’t know how to, just to further the knowledge and the Arthur of the course, although way off on some of there thinking around gender and the use of male and female energies, they do have some good idea’s around what you can cast for so I’m gonna see if I can find one that looks good for keeping a sense of serenity. I’ll let you know how it goes!
Hope you all have a blessed week. Laters witch’s